Fears for Tears



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Forever I have feared the tears

The long ribbons of sadness

And trapped within my fears

I dance with the madness

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I worry that should they start

Whatever solace they may lend

Will be my falling apart

A risk they may never end

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If I were to just let go

Untether the haunted mind

What revealed, I cannot know

Or the pain in the things I find

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Stoic stays a man still child

Not out of a sense of bravery

The saddest part, all the while

By tears, I am bound in slavery

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These old eyes have seen too much

And if allowed, salted drops to well

They may bring with their touch

A different kind of hell

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Someday, I may lose this battle

I will become the broken man

Greatest fear whilst I cry and prattle

Who will hold this child’s hand?

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Comments
27 Responses to “Fears for Tears”
  1. Beautifully written Brad, while each line has a powerful impact, I love the ending and how you relate to tears with a long ribbon of sadness; it’s such a great comparison. I, too, just posted a poem, and to a certain extent, it’s again kind of similar to yours. Is it really that our minds are in some telepathic sync, or is it that because I consider you as a guru, I get to see a tiny fraction of your unique thoughts inside me? Well not sure will know.

    • Brad Osborne says:

      I do think we are sometimes in a telepathic sync, but I can assure you that the beauty you create with your words is solely yours. I am honored that you look to me as a mentor, but it is your passion and drive to create that has provided your accomplishments. I am humbled by your words and greatly appreciative of your support and friendship! To be honest, I though your post today was much better than mine, and of that I am so proud!

      • I am glad about the sync, and yes, I will always consider you as a mentor because your guidance, positivity, and approachability are commendable. But the best is your humble nature Brad, your selflessness to help me or anyone alike. I will only hope to make you more proud, but for me reading your work has been stepping into a whole new world of possibility. You, Mr. 365 of the poetry world, and I always wish to see your fantastic art touch our heart every passing day πŸ™‚πŸ™πŸ‘πŸ‘Œ

      • Brad Osborne says:

        You honor me and I am humbled. I will always be proud of your work and effort, but most importantly, I am proud of the person you choose to be. πŸ™

  2. beth says:

    very beautifully written

  3. Oh, Brad…. how I wish you’d let go of the weight of those tears, and know that in the release, you will release the pain that they hold. And, my dear brother, I took care of the child when he was, indeed, only a child, and I have never let go of your hand even as you grew into an adult. I will ALWAYS be here to hold your hand, to absorb your tears on my shoulders, and to nurture you as you let them free. I love you beyond measure!

    • Brad Osborne says:

      Oh, if it were only that easy my loving and ever faithful sister. The want to let go is tamped by years of conditioning and the fear of what letting go may release in its aftermath. This is a long road for me to walk, but I think I take a few steps everyday. Hopefully I can find the end of this road before the end of my physical journey through the universe. Love you to pieces!

      • Oh, my loving brother, how did we come from the same family? I was always the crier, the one who wore her heart on her sleeve and was chastised by our parents to “buck up and QUIT crying” while you were conditioned to never start crying (I blame the Marines for that!). I am proud of every step you take on this road, and I hope I will still be here to hold you hand when you reach its end!

      • Brad Osborne says:

        The Marines did not help to make me expressive emotionally, but the largest blame likely lies with the male archetype prominent in my youth. You know, before it was cool to be sensitive, and even now not too sensitive. There are still times today where expect a man to act and behave like a strong, rational, unemotional man. There are still many mixed signals today on what is expected of a man emotionally.

  4. Secrets says:

    Outstanding Brad πŸ‘πŸ‘πŸ‘

  5. KK says:

    A beautifully crafted poem! Thanks!!

  6. Jim Borden says:

    that sounds like a tough battle.

    and I agree that there is pressure on men to not show their emotion. I cry easily during a movie, but even then, I often try to hide it…

  7. A most beautiful poem to growing old, acquiring understanding and softening the heart enough to let a tear slide through…

  8. jonicaggiano says:

    Brad this is simply beautiful. I understand what you’re saying here as well although I’ve already opened and exceeded my flood gates years ago.

    β€œI worry that should they start

    Whatever solace they may lend

    Will be my falling apart

    A risk they may never end”

    Hope all is well with you. We have been traveling in the mountains of North Carolina looking for a mountain home as opposed to where we are currently living, so I have been off-line pretty much for a couple of days. I will try to catch up in the next few days. Sending you lots of love my dear friend. You never disappoint Brad. Love Jonikins πŸ˜˜πŸ’•πŸ€—β€οΈ

  9. petespringerauthor says:

    I’m that guy that cries during sappy commercials. One of my brothers is the same way, and the tears seem to flow much easier with age.

  10. kristianw84 says:

    My dearest Brad, your lovely verses pulled at these soft heart strings of mine.

    The best advice I was ever given came to me not long after my mother’s passing. A guy I used to work with told me I would feel numerous emotions & to allow myself to feel them. I know it’s easier said than done. I know I still don’t know you all that well, but I’ve picked up on a few things. I’m sure you’re a bit stubborn and have been conditioned to suppress emotion, but the healing comes from releasing them. The only way out is through. You are not nor will you ever be “broken.” Deeply wounded, maybe, but not broken. Anyway, I will hold your hand. I may not always know what to say or be able to make things better, but I will always sit with you in the dark and offer my hand when you need one to hold. ❀ Oh, & by the way, you’re not old until you’re 80. 😘

    • Brad Osborne says:

      My dear Kristian, you are such a kind, generous, and thoughtful friend. Thanks you for you welcomed words. You are a ray of sunshine on a cloudy day. Hope you guys are well and safe. Much love! πŸ’–πŸŒΉ

      • kristianw84 says:

        You always make me smile, friend. ❀ We are safe & mostly well. Climbing the walls and going story crazy, but I think most of us are in that boat.

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