Push



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Feeling once abandoned

Leaves a permanent stain

A constant haunting fear

That no one will remain

~~~

You hold those dear so close

Paying all and any cost

And then you drown again

When, they too are lost

~~~

Over and over repeated

Belief becomes well frayed

And every time it happens

You feel even more betrayed

~~~

What you cannot easily see

In the history so oft replayed

Is all the times the one you loved

Did not leave, but was pushed away

~~~

For the fears within you now

Of being hurt once again

Powered by the striking first

And causing the love to end

~~~

It still hurts to lose them

But you feel more in control

It would have ended any way

Is what you tell your soul

~~~

And all the pain of those years

Is burdened on a single heart

Whose love for you unbounded

Is doomed from the very start

~~~

If lose at love you must

Then it will be your way

Another war is won against

The heart that would have stayed

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Comments
19 Responses to “Push”
  1. That’s the way of love my friend…but it leads to wonderful poetry. All the best to you,
    FBC.

  2. Sadly, I’m more often the pusher instead of the pushee. I’m so afraid that the person is going to leave me that I decide I need to control when (never if) the relationship is over, and do things intentionally to make what I believe come true.

  3. jonicaggiano says:

    I know this feeling all to well. All ACOA’s have abandonment issues, although this is so beautifully written Brad, it is a hard thing not being in control. I pray that if you have these issues you work on them.

    For if a romantic, and handsome man like you wants to hold on to love and there comes that urge to push away before they might find a reason, so you become that reason.
    How lovely this poem expresses that fear that haunts us, those that were in fact abandoned especially at a young age. Five star poem Brad. Love you Jonikins 🥰🥰❤️💕😘⭐️💕💝

    • Brad Osborne says:

      Thanks Jonikins! I am glad I did the emotions service.

      • jonicaggiano says:

        You all ways do my friend.

        You are such a modest man my friend. I
        Read your write up
        Spillwords Press NYC composed about you on “Poet of the Month,” for the second time today. You have achieved some very impressive awards in the world of writers and of course the service to your Country. What a wonderful choice they made indeed.

        Sending love, hugs and admiration as always for your talent, honesty and your humility. Jonikins

      • Brad Osborne says:

        Thank you Jonikins! Spillwords has been very kind to me. Thank you for all your love and support. Sending mine in return! 🌹

      • jonicaggiano says:

        I am so happy for you and you are so deserving. Yea!!!! If I was there we would dance the tango and celebrate. Love ❤️ Jonikins

  4. kristianw84 says:

    I have often been the one that gets pushed away because once I commit, I am all in, I dive in the deep end until I am fully emerged. I give my whole heart away & after the countless heartaches and tears shed, and time spent wondering what the hell is wrong with me, I still don’t know how to stop caring or giving my everything.

    Anyways, none of that matters now. Your poems are so beautiful, and this one is no exception. You really know how to tug on my heartstrings. ❤❤

  5. petespringerauthor says:

    Sad any way you look at it.

  6. Jim Borden says:

    if only we knew how much someone loved us, we wouldn’t push them away…

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