Looking Back


If given some say by would be fate

Change things in my life, a second chance

An opportunity to skew my current state

And in some small way my life enhance


If I could rewind to those biggest choices

Where I could choose left instead of right

If I had listened to the other head voices

Or just seen my world in a truer light


If I had decided to stay instead of run

Or built a bridge in place of a wall

When it was finally all said and done

Would it really have mattered at all


If I had decided to risk when I faced a fear

Or saved the love I so poorly spent

If each branch on my forward path more clear

Would it have changed the direction I went


Or would I do everything just the same

Suffering over each pain and great fall

Not kismet or destiny will bear the blame

For in my own life I am master of all


Would changing the past be benefit

Would it have made me some better man

Or must I accept history and be fine with it

That not everything went according to plan


An easier road may have been sought

But would it change who I would be

I can accept what my failures bought

For they made the person that is me


I would not want to change a moment

For when all added they create a sum

Each a critical and vital component

To the man that I have become


19 Responses to “Looking Back”
  1. kristianw84 says:

    It is easy to look back and wish we had done things differently, but I think anyone who looks back and doesn’t cringe at some of their choices or actions has not grown. This is so beautifully written, my dear friend. I adore the person you are. I wouldn’t change a single thing! β€πŸ¦’

  2. Thinking that there is a possibility to turn back and go right instead of left, go up instead of down, and things like that, may make us think that we can right some of the wrongs we have committed or erase some of our mistakes (what we know now that are mistakes, while we were making them we might have thought it was right), but destiny is not guided by our wishes, but by our actions and actions cannot be changed. Lovely work my friend, you have turned a philosophical prolegomenon, (not to a book but to a discussion). into art.

  3. beth says:

    this is so wonderful asked and answered. I feel exactly the same about my life.

  4. I hear – and understand – this message, loud and clear. When I start thinking that way (and I do, far too often), I remind myself that I did the best I could with the knowledge I had at the time and the understanding I had of the circumstances of each decision at the time.

  5. Jim Borden says:

    one of my favorites, Bard. All those what-ifs, but it’s so hard to say what the outcome of alternative choices would have been that we need to accept they way things are and keep moving forward…

  6. petespringerauthor says:

    I so get this. Who doesn’t have occasions about the “what ifs,” even if we’re happy in our present life? I had this discussion with a friend recently and concluded that there are certain things in life where “content” will suffice. When I eat a meal, watch a film or play, read a book, etc. In the end, I want to feel content. The feeling of that was time well spent.

    The difference for me is the crucial things in life, such as relationships, career, etc., contentment doesn’t cut it. That feels like settling; we should never settle when it comes to important areas of life.

    Look at you making me get all philosophical.😊 Heading off to Montana tomorrow to see our son. That’s one of those areas where contentment doesn’t cut it. Talk to you next week.

  7. I have never wanted to relive my life but I would love to see the alternate universe results if I had made different turns on the path. I suspect that in my case, the bottom lines would not be that different even if the names, places, and jobs were not the same.

    • Brad Osborne says:

      I think in most cases the alternate would not diverge tremendously from the original. Thank you for that wonderful perspective. I guess wisdom does come with age!

  8. Isha Chawla says:

    It is so inspiring and beautiful β€οΈπŸ˜­πŸ‘ŒπŸŒ»πŸ₯ΊπŸ”₯
    I was thinking to write something abt my past but I can never write better than this but will try
    I am falling for your poems Sir πŸ₯Ί

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